Sunday, April 21, 2013

Cambridge-bred



In February 2010, I was invited to be a guest artist at my beloved alma mater, Cambridge Rindge & Latin School. It was Black History Month. The Diversity Programs Coordinator scheduled me to perform two 45-minute sets for Periods 2 and 4. Hundreds of students poured into a newly renovated library auditorium to hear my poems and stories about “the intersection of race, class, gender, sexuality and culture.” In many ways, CRLS embodied that intersection. I remember looking out at the student body and remarking, “It’s good to see you again. I graduated in 1998 but you look exactly the same!” The teenagers giggled, knowingly. Rindge remains one of the most socioeconomically diverse high schools in the United States. In 2010, the boy called Suspect 2 was a junior. Did he catch my show? Did he applaud my words about peaceful coexistence and compassion? 

Like him and many Rindge alum, I am an immigrant. I moved from Haiti to the U.S. in 1983. My family moved from Dorchester to Cambridge in 1988. I grew up broke, in a strict household that was alternately affectionate and hostile. As a young person, I knew my greatest privilege was being a resident of what we proudly nicknamed "The People's Republic of Cantabridgia." For me, school was a safe haven. Everyday in the hallways, I greeted Joanne from the Dominican Republic, Malik from West Philly, Chara from Liberia, Semhar from Eritrea, Desiree from Trinidad, Mario from Greece, Chris from Cape Verde, Kubhear from Malaysia—and I could go on. Aminah was Indian but adopted by white parents. Our school was full of multiracial, hyphenated, new and layered Americans.

We were each other’s cultural ambassadors. We were Jewish, Christian, Muslim, Buddhist, polytheistic and agnostic. We were hip-hop, folk, jazz, punk, grunge and pop. We built deep friendships and made first love across ethnic lines. 

We offended each other, too. Told each other off. Debated with a mix of newly acquired SAT vocabulary and fad slang. We asked corny-ass, politically incorrect questions. We humored each other. We scoffed at the word tolerance, aiming, instead, for acceptancecelebration, even. We learned how to curse in each other's first languages. And, after school, “underneath the overpass,” we flirted with kids our grandparents might not have approved of—kids who looked, dressed and ate nothing like us. 

Our sweaty prom photos are so frickin' hip, y’all.

Our crowded class portraits reflect the America Obama's always talking about.

In Cambridge, borders seemed simply technical. King’s dream seemed attainable. Rindge wasn’t perfect but it was where I learned the word feminism, the phrase social justice, the initialism LGBT. It's where my teachers, peers and community leaders came out to me in school-wide assemblies. It’s where the school motto is "opportunity, diversity, respect." 

You saw all those flags waving in the explosion footage at the Boston Marathon finish line? I saw dozens of flags every single day at school. They were huge above our heads, on permanent display in our gymnasium, a constant reminder that the "Falcons" represented 80 different nations. I think of people from all over the world when I think of my hometown.

The boy called Suspect 2 lived five blocks from my old address. Much is being made about this alleged bomber’s birthplace and religion but I can’t shake it: he was a kid from Cambridge. He looks like so many kids from Cambridge. The criminal with the gun, the explosives, the cryptic tweets—the fugitive bleeding in the boathe shows up in hip prom photos, too. 

I met a lot of students after my 2010 performances at Rindge. Did I smile at Johar? Did he shake my hand? When and how did he become the Dzhokhar we’re reading about in the news? What did growing up in Cambridge, MA mean to him?

Monday, December 17, 2012

raised, shielding, shaking, making

I am on a train, on my way home from the National Performance Network annual meeting in Philadelphia. A couple of brilliant b-boys from Miami were the first to tell me about the ache coming out of Newtown. Heads bowed in our impromtu somber huddle, we tried to imagine the grieving families. Then we realized we, too, were grieving. The b-boys were fathers to toddlers. There were children squirming in arms all around us at the conference. It was so busy. Constant movement. A swollen river of artists, presenters and their advocates. Waterfall voices pouring over every inch of our few days together. So the conference-wide moment of silence was startling. A relieving but crude break from what seemed like endless buzz. Nothing is endless. Cherish everything and everyone you see, hear and believe in. All weekend, I've been hugging friends, introducing my hand to new hands, collecting pretty cards and stunning ideas. All weekend, I've been bursting into tears, thinking of students and teachers so shocked and then so still. All weekend, I've been breaking bread, peering at paintings, leaning into good intentions on the dance floor, applauding flashes of divinity on stages. I'm so thankful for artists. For fathers who dance, mothers who write, teachers who sing, children who grow up to build sets, focus lights and design costumes. Remember the little hands that never got to grow. Remember raised hands, shielding hands, shaking hands. Long live creativity. May it heal our hearts pierced by the brutal fact of destruction. Peace be unto your creative hands. Make all the magic and love and music you can for as long as you can. Infinity is endless. Cherish everything, everyone.

Monday, November 26, 2012

new poem: toll up

over 600, 000 cholera
cases in haiti since
october 2010 official death
toll up to 7, 500
grief rising

behind the numbers

people
their words
their hearts
their faith

victims hum pop songs

victims fall in love forever
or with the wrong
people victims rebound
or never forgive

victims buy soap

victims watch lousy soap operas
dubbed in floral french perfume
victims learn to walk
again learn to steal learn stillness

victims find cake

and candle out of no way
mark a grandparent's birthday
fret over wavering knife
in withered hand

victims

have
names
not
victim 

before another american argues

about which strain
caused the stain
count the pairs of eyes
squinting against the sun

count the hairs on each head

the prayers before dreams
the raindrops on tents
the wide-awake curses
the steps to the hospital

the living count

their thirst

© 2012 by Lenelle Moïse

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

shapes of success

sometimes success looks like nothing i've ever seen before.

or it looks like things i've seen so often and refuse to take for granted: glue on fingerprints, a hand drawn hand, a happy tongue licking the last bit of curry from a dinner plate, a swept floor, a traced over question mark taking up a whole page in my journal, the old boots i've cherished for a decade repaired and polished up, tuesday's line through monday's item on my to-do list.

i'm still looking for new ways to see what never got awarded, certified or reviewed: an actor's mouth tasting the lines i dared to write, clean cotton clothes drying in the autumn sun, a sweet secret in an email from a stranger (i'll never tell), the end of the bike path, my lover's smile in my direction, a stamped envelope released into the sorting hands i may not get to shake but trust.

success is an ellipses.

and an eclipse i stumbled into midnight cold for and caught, the pencil's pink eraser diminished, the swollen sacred space between the last word of a new spoken poem and applause, the writer's callus on my left middle finger. it got me through my childhood. i could go on.

what does success look like to you?

Thursday, June 28, 2012

inspiration: stella jean

As I develop my one-woman show, Ache What Make, I continue to be inspired by aesthetics of resourcefulness, ever-present in the creative output of the Haitian Diaspora. The Stella Jean Spring/Summer 2012 collection jerks my collar. The juxtaposition of head wrap bouquets, boyish button-down shirts and flamboyant wax print skirts nods to a time-honored Caribbean sensibility.
 
 

Jean is a mixed-race Italian-Haitian woman in her thirties. She makes it clear in a candid interview: her hyphenated identity informs her confident designs.  

Creole, clever, cool. Italian-Haitian designer Stella Jean.
 

I love the colorful interplay between demure and décolleté, linear and circular, formal and relaxed.

 

Even as she conjures the costume compromises of the colonized, Jean achieves current, cohesive looks for boundary-blurring women. 


Presto and voilà!

 

Backstage at Rome's Haitian Embassy, Jean talks about her influences. I don't speak Italian (yet) but I recognize the word "Ayiti."

 

From Stella Jean's "Still a Goddess" collection for Fashion-ABLE Haiti.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

inspiration: fiona live

Last night, I had a date to see the mighty, moving and mysterious Fiona Apple at the Calvin Theatre in Northampton, MA. Wow! It was one of the most brilliant, brazen, bizarre & beautiful concerts I have ever seen. She's Sylvia Plath, Edith Piaf, Wednesday Adams, Janis Joplin and Minerva rolled into an unforgettable sonic force. I was mesmerized by her shifting self: a percussive performance poet in a shiny gown, growling gospel warnings to whimpster exes; an angular yogini mouthing urgent, vexed gibberish; a wide-eyed, wounded child, cowering beside a grand piano, playing her slight thighs like a keyboard; a tongue-in-cheek criminal, squirming behind the microphone, daring us to sing along. Her clunky boots combated the stage (say a prayer for the knees). She dragged her voice through the mud then nailed a note so clean, so high, the audience stopped breathing. Even from my balcony seat, I felt like she was staring.

She had me at Tidal.
By now you already know: there's a new album with a long title and a USA tour. Go!

Monday, November 14, 2011

what you need to know about ithaca

On November 10, 2011, the Haitian Students Association of Cornell University brought me to Ithaca, New York to perform poetry. I loved every minute of my quick and memorable visit. The students were hospitable and bright, Cornell's architecture is stunning and, like the T-shirt slogan says, "Ithaca is gorges."

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